Well, I made it home! Yes, there were almost 2 million people at the Inauguration, and yes, it was FREEZING!!!! I got in line Tuesday morning at 4:45 a.m. There were a few from my group who had arrived about 20 minutes before me, so I was able to get in line with them very near the entrance gate for the purple section, even though the line had already started wrapping around the block. Around 5:30 another member of our group, Lewis, arrived and was not being permitted to come to meet us in the line. We stood en mass for the next three and a half hours, stomping our feet and jumping up and down trying to keep our feet and bodies warm. When they opened the gates at 8:00, we passed through the security screening area and started walking toward the purple section. My friends and I were able to get in the second row (standing) from the fence that was dividing our section which was amazing, however, there were trees blocking much of the view from where we were standing.
I got a call from Lewis around 9:30 and he said he thought he could see the gate, but they were no longer letting anyone enter through the gate. I couldn't believe it! He was in line only 45 minutes after me, and he was not allowed to come in and be a part of the ceremony. I had questioned my sanity when I was going to bed at 12:30 the night before and setting my alarm for 3a.m. I questioned myself again as I stood in the freezing cold for over three hours, but when I realized that I would not have been allowed into the ceremony if I had arrived later, I was thankful that I had made the choices I did.
There was an unbelievable sense of calm over the entire crowd, and I heard on the news later Tuesday night that there was not even one arrest the entire day! Everyone was just so excited to be present at such an historic event that they were happy and even playful. I must say, however, that there was definitely an air of negativity in the section that I was in when it came time for the former presidents to be introduced. While I can understand being excited and even exhilarated about the swearing in of the new president, I can not understand the disrespect and snide attitude that was demonstrated toward those who were considered to be on "the other side". The crowd wildly cheered for the Clintons and even Jimmy Carter. However, when Republican congress members were introduced, they didn't applaud at all. Then when President Bush was introduced, my section and every section behind us started booing him and singing, "Na na na na, na na na na na , say goodbye" over and over again. I was very sad to hear such disrespect and rudeness.
The ceremony was interesting and went smoothly except for the stumbling of words during the swearing in of President Obama. When it was over at 12:30, everyone peacefully started moving toward the metro stations. My feet were so cold by this time that I could no longer feel my toes, and when I started walking, my feet hurt with every step for about 45 minutes to an hour. I don't remember ever being so cold!! It took five hours of walking against the crowds with about 30 minutes of resting time at a crowded office building before we found a metro station where we could get on the train and head toward our apartment. It was 6:00 p.m. when I got back and started packing and cleaning to be ready to leave at 6:30 the next morning to come home.
It was truly a once in a life time opportunity to be able to be a part of such a time as this. I will never forget it! It would take days and days to relay all that I saw and heard. If you see me and want to know more, ask. I will try to put into words the things that have stuck in my mind the most. Bob asked me Saturday what the highlight of the trip was for me. I don't think I could name just one thing. There were so many! A few I have written on this blog, but there are countless more. One of the best parts for me was the small group of fourteen that I met with throughout the conference. Out of those 14, nine of us really connected beyond the small group experience. We continued to meet up and site-see together or have dinner or lunch. I left with a new set of friends that will remain in my heart forever. That was one of the best things.
So I am home and have hit the ground running. I feel extremely jet lagged and I have a whole new routine to enter into as this new semester starts. Classes started for the Spring semester Inauguration day, so I had to be in class Thursday at 8:30 a.m. The good news is I am taking a Jazz History class at 8:30, so I get to wake up to Miles Davis and the like!! That makes for a great start to those early mornings.
The journey continues from this point, and where it will lead only God knows. I am so thankful for the gifts that have continually been dropped into my lap! Big ones like this trip are mind blowing and overwhelmingly wonderful. But the greatest gifts of all are the people that He continues to bring into my life and the amazing family that He has given me. You are the most brilliant jewels that I have found as I have journeyed with Him. Thank you for enriching my life so greatly and for walking this journey with me. I wonder what comes next?
I will keep you posted........
~Angie
Monday, January 26, 2009
Monday, January 19, 2009
Excitement and wonder
Tomorrow I will be attending the Inauguration Ceremony alongside an estimated 2+ million other Americans and internationals. While I am thoroughly excited about this amazing opportunity, there is another part of me that is wondering, "How it is going to work out to potentially have over 2 million people gathered in one place for 6-8 hours with only 5,000 portable toilets available for everyone to use?" I am not kidding! That is a real statistic!!
Well, one thing I have learned in his very cold place, you don't drink nearly as much liquid when it is this cold, and the need for a bathroom break is greatly diminished as well. : )
Today I stood in a line for over two hours waiting to get through security screening at Congressman Trent Franks office building so that I could pick up tickets that were promised to me for the ceremony. Believe me, there were a few times that I thought about leaving, but the really cool thing about my patience (and cold toes) is that I was given tickets to stand in the "purple zone" on the Capitol side of the reflecting pool in front of the steps on the west side of the Capitol building. While it is not up close and personal, and I will be standing for many hours, I will be one of the closest attendees present. I will try to post a picture of my vantage point when I get back tomorrow so you can get a clearer idea of what this really means. Let's just say that Congressman Franks' assistant told me that 91% of the tickets they were given to distribute were in the "silver zone" located behind the reflecting pool! There may be a map on a website that you could look at, but I am not sure. I will try to save mine so if you are interested, I can show you sometime.
My journey here is almost over, and I must say that I am very ready to come home to my sweet family, and the warmth of Arizona's sun, but this has been an amazing trip! I am so inspired by all that I have seen and heard. I will walk away from this experience with a greater perspective and appreciation of the role our political leaders have and with a greater awareness of how truly important it is for us all to be actively participating in it all.
I can't wait to be with all who mean so much to me. I miss you all very much. Thanks for following this leg of the journey with me. I will continue to post more even after I return home to continue to keep a logue of the journey I am traveling with Him who has called me according to His purposes.
See you on the other side
~Angie
Well, one thing I have learned in his very cold place, you don't drink nearly as much liquid when it is this cold, and the need for a bathroom break is greatly diminished as well. : )
Today I stood in a line for over two hours waiting to get through security screening at Congressman Trent Franks office building so that I could pick up tickets that were promised to me for the ceremony. Believe me, there were a few times that I thought about leaving, but the really cool thing about my patience (and cold toes) is that I was given tickets to stand in the "purple zone" on the Capitol side of the reflecting pool in front of the steps on the west side of the Capitol building. While it is not up close and personal, and I will be standing for many hours, I will be one of the closest attendees present. I will try to post a picture of my vantage point when I get back tomorrow so you can get a clearer idea of what this really means. Let's just say that Congressman Franks' assistant told me that 91% of the tickets they were given to distribute were in the "silver zone" located behind the reflecting pool! There may be a map on a website that you could look at, but I am not sure. I will try to save mine so if you are interested, I can show you sometime.
My journey here is almost over, and I must say that I am very ready to come home to my sweet family, and the warmth of Arizona's sun, but this has been an amazing trip! I am so inspired by all that I have seen and heard. I will walk away from this experience with a greater perspective and appreciation of the role our political leaders have and with a greater awareness of how truly important it is for us all to be actively participating in it all.
I can't wait to be with all who mean so much to me. I miss you all very much. Thanks for following this leg of the journey with me. I will continue to post more even after I return home to continue to keep a logue of the journey I am traveling with Him who has called me according to His purposes.
See you on the other side
~Angie
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Forward thinking
In two days Barak Obama will be inaugurated as the 44th president of the United States. There are an estimated 2-4 million people expected to attend the ceremony. President-elect Obama has captured the hearts and hopes of many Americans who are hoping for a better future for themselves and our country. One of the things we discussed this past week at the conference is the reality of the tremendous hope for change that has been generated throughout the campaign process and the expectations of people that Obama will lead us into that change vs the reality of the inherent limitations placed on the president from the Constitution that will often prevent him from accomplishing many of the things expected.
As we move into the future with our new president, questions arise regarding what the Obama administration will focus on first. The obvious place to begin will be the economy, but then what comes next? For many years, America has placed great expectations on the current president to fix the country's and the world's greatest problems. It has been made very clear this week through the speakers and discussions at this conference that our focus truly needs to shift from the role of the president on whom all expectations lie, to the role of our congressional members. I have been gaining new insight into the need for greater research and knowledge about the ones being elected into congress. The people in congress carry the bulk of the weight of helping create change. We need to be sure that who we are placing into office at the congressional level are as highly known and scrutinized as those whom we consider for president. It is through the joint efforts of Congress and the presidency that change occurs and forward thinking can take place with authentic change being the result of finding common ground and true hope being supported and brought to fruition.
Ultimately, I place my hope on Jesus Christ and His plan for our future. I choose to stand in the light of His truth that He has a plan and a purpose for all things and uses all things to bring about
As we move into the future with our new president, questions arise regarding what the Obama administration will focus on first. The obvious place to begin will be the economy, but then what comes next? For many years, America has placed great expectations on the current president to fix the country's and the world's greatest problems. It has been made very clear this week through the speakers and discussions at this conference that our focus truly needs to shift from the role of the president on whom all expectations lie, to the role of our congressional members. I have been gaining new insight into the need for greater research and knowledge about the ones being elected into congress. The people in congress carry the bulk of the weight of helping create change. We need to be sure that who we are placing into office at the congressional level are as highly known and scrutinized as those whom we consider for president. It is through the joint efforts of Congress and the presidency that change occurs and forward thinking can take place with authentic change being the result of finding common ground and true hope being supported and brought to fruition.
Ultimately, I place my hope on Jesus Christ and His plan for our future. I choose to stand in the light of His truth that He has a plan and a purpose for all things and uses all things to bring about
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Seeking balance
Sam Donaldson spoke to us on Friday. What a lively man! He shared his history of media coverage and the many presidents he was able to interview and the many events that took place throughout his career. I appreciated so much that he took a more balanced view of everything. He commented many times about presidents who were looked down on and how he saw them in a positive light. He did not make excuses for them, he simply told us about the successes of these men as well as their mistakes. He acknowledged the failures or weaknesses without degrading them. It validated my longing for the media of times gone by. Mr. Donaldson spoke about being objective, provocative in the sense of getting to the real point of a story or asking the hard questions, and being able to keep a professional head in the heat of the moment.
There has been a lot of discussion this week about the entertainment focus that has become the norm in the media. I have been listening to the young people at this conference talking about, agreeing with, and seeking for validation to their points of view. The speakers and leaders of the conference have been greatly encouraging a more balanced exposure to all points of view and of listening with an open mind. This is the first time I have heard "open mind" being used to encourage openness to a crowd that appeared to be much more liberal than conservative.
I have said already that the conservative voice seems to be very quiet. Yesterday I received confirmation of this statement. I had a conversation with another attendee from Kentucky and two from Canada. They shared their perspective of the same observation without my speaking of it first. They told me that their small group consisted mostly of Republicans, and that they had noticed an unusual quietness in this group when they were in the large group sessions. As we talked, we came to the conclusion that Conservative voices were holding back due to the overwhelming voice from the Liberal students.
As I think more about this, I am beginning to realize that it is time for a boldness to emerge that matches the number of voices that are now choosing to remain quiet out of fear of being seen as intolerant or narrow minded. Speaking out in an environment that is loudly stating views that are different than your own is risky. But taking risks in those moments is the very thing that we need to be doing. Not to be combative, but to help invite other voices sharing similar views to enter into the conversation to bring balance and to find common ground so that stark political lines can begin to be dulled. This sounds like compromise and it is, but it is compromise to achieve a greater good, not to shrink back from your values or beliefs, but rather to find ways to reach the goals each of us have in mind: achieving good government and helping to create a better and safer world for everyone.
~Angie
There has been a lot of discussion this week about the entertainment focus that has become the norm in the media. I have been listening to the young people at this conference talking about, agreeing with, and seeking for validation to their points of view. The speakers and leaders of the conference have been greatly encouraging a more balanced exposure to all points of view and of listening with an open mind. This is the first time I have heard "open mind" being used to encourage openness to a crowd that appeared to be much more liberal than conservative.
I have said already that the conservative voice seems to be very quiet. Yesterday I received confirmation of this statement. I had a conversation with another attendee from Kentucky and two from Canada. They shared their perspective of the same observation without my speaking of it first. They told me that their small group consisted mostly of Republicans, and that they had noticed an unusual quietness in this group when they were in the large group sessions. As we talked, we came to the conclusion that Conservative voices were holding back due to the overwhelming voice from the Liberal students.
As I think more about this, I am beginning to realize that it is time for a boldness to emerge that matches the number of voices that are now choosing to remain quiet out of fear of being seen as intolerant or narrow minded. Speaking out in an environment that is loudly stating views that are different than your own is risky. But taking risks in those moments is the very thing that we need to be doing. Not to be combative, but to help invite other voices sharing similar views to enter into the conversation to bring balance and to find common ground so that stark political lines can begin to be dulled. This sounds like compromise and it is, but it is compromise to achieve a greater good, not to shrink back from your values or beliefs, but rather to find ways to reach the goals each of us have in mind: achieving good government and helping to create a better and safer world for everyone.
~Angie
Friday, January 16, 2009
Hope and pondering
One of the guest speakers at the conference Thursday was the Ambassador of the Islamic Republic of Pakistan, Hussain Haqqani. He spoke to us about his country and about the War on Terror. He shared with us his perspective on how to fight against terrorists. Pakistan is rich in cotton. He believes that one of the best ways we can begin to move toward winning the war on terror is to increase the need for cotton by demand for exporting to countries like the U.S. In doing this, jobs will be created that will draw those who might otherwise be pulled into terrorist recruitment.
He also spoke about the need for Americans to begin to think more globally; to think beyond their own borders. The reality of America providing military or economic help for Pakistan and other countries is not unappealing to them; however, he feels that rather than America marching in and taking the lead for these countries, they should first become more aware of the culture, desires, and dreams of the people in the country they are helping.
One of the students asked him how he felt about the civilian casualties that are taking place because of American troops. I believe his response was quite different than most in the conference expected. He told us that Pakistanis believe that American troops are doing the best that they can to avoid as many civilian casualties as possible, and that while those casualties are tragic, the reality of the terrorist threat is great. The American military is welcomed and supported by Pakistan.
Hearing directly from leaders of other countries has been one of the most dynamic parts of this experience for me. I feel that amazing insight has been brought to the table to consider and grow from. My understanding of diplomacy has been broadened and I have a new interest in learning even more about Pakistan and other countries in the Middle East.
Being at this conference is an incredible gift. Dreaming of what comes next on this journey is invigorating!!
Looking forward,
Angie
He also spoke about the need for Americans to begin to think more globally; to think beyond their own borders. The reality of America providing military or economic help for Pakistan and other countries is not unappealing to them; however, he feels that rather than America marching in and taking the lead for these countries, they should first become more aware of the culture, desires, and dreams of the people in the country they are helping.
One of the students asked him how he felt about the civilian casualties that are taking place because of American troops. I believe his response was quite different than most in the conference expected. He told us that Pakistanis believe that American troops are doing the best that they can to avoid as many civilian casualties as possible, and that while those casualties are tragic, the reality of the terrorist threat is great. The American military is welcomed and supported by Pakistan.
Hearing directly from leaders of other countries has been one of the most dynamic parts of this experience for me. I feel that amazing insight has been brought to the table to consider and grow from. My understanding of diplomacy has been broadened and I have a new interest in learning even more about Pakistan and other countries in the Middle East.
Being at this conference is an incredible gift. Dreaming of what comes next on this journey is invigorating!!
Looking forward,
Angie
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Perspectives
Being in Washington D.C. is certainly an amazing experience! I have seen and heard many new things that I have not been exposed to before. My perspective of the world is being broadened and enhanced.
Yesterday, Press Secretary Dana Perino came to our conference to be a guest on CSPAN, which was being broadcast live from our conference. (You can go to CSPAN's web site to see this episode of CSPAN Journal Live as well as one from the day before.) I really appreciated Dana being a part of this conference when she has so many other things to be responsible for in these last days leading up to the transition of President Bush leaving and President Elect Obama coming into office. It was good to hear from another perspective for a change. While there has been some great "common ground" moments at this conference, the majority of what has been presented has been from a very Leftist perspective. There are some Rightist positions presented, but the voice of the Right seems rather quiet compared to the Left.
I have always been more of a Centerist, but it often feels as if the voice from the Right is not welcome or accepted in this crowd. I have been hearing very strong voices speaking out against many things, but especially President Bush. Dana Perino gave some validity to my own views and thoughts regarding many of the comments being made. She also held a strong presence and poise that was commendable considering some of the questions being asked of her. The students from the conference were invited to ask her questions during the CSPAN show. You can hear those questions and Dana's answers on CSPAN's web page.
We also heard from Ted Kopel, who brought in a very strong opposing view to Dana Perino, but he had some very good things to contribute to the conversation taking place this week at the conference. There has been a lot presented about the news media, its influence good and bad on political views and outcomes, and about the types of media being used to obtain information such as TV vs. Cable news, blogs and the internet. One of the things being encouraged over and over again is for the students to broaden their perspective by reading materials presenting the opposing side from their views and to enter into civil, listening conversations with others who do not think the same way that they do. Surveys have shown that people 18-35 get the bulk of their news from late night talk shows, Saturday Night Live or other talk show programming and radio. We have been encouraged to read and listen to more legitimate news from all perspectives.
Yesterday afternoon my small group went to visit the Embassy of the State of Kuwait where we met Fatima Nazar, Cultural Attaché. She spoke with us about her country and we heard her perspective of America and the foreign affairs between America and Kuwait. Fatima was very gracious and incredibly pro-America. There was no political party posturing, just incredible enthusiasm regarding the relationship we have between us, and Kuwait's tremendous gratitude for the way that America came and helped to liberate them during the Gulf War. She stated many truths about bi-partisan realities. Regardless of which side you are on, according to Fatima, our government works and works well. Nothing is perfect; no one can fix everything within a four to eight year term of presidential office. No one can control what will come tomorrow. No matter how great you are perceived to be, failures and disappointment are inevitable. Grace and forgiveness will go a long way toward enhancing unity within the political arena of the United States of America in these troubled and strongly divided times.
My hope is that my perspective and views will be challenged and strengthened through this experience. Without a doubt, there is much work to be done to bring us to better stability as a country. My prayer will be that God's will would be done through our newly elected President and that I will be ever mindful and watchful to find my role in it.
~Angie
Yesterday, Press Secretary Dana Perino came to our conference to be a guest on CSPAN, which was being broadcast live from our conference. (You can go to CSPAN's web site to see this episode of CSPAN Journal Live as well as one from the day before.) I really appreciated Dana being a part of this conference when she has so many other things to be responsible for in these last days leading up to the transition of President Bush leaving and President Elect Obama coming into office. It was good to hear from another perspective for a change. While there has been some great "common ground" moments at this conference, the majority of what has been presented has been from a very Leftist perspective. There are some Rightist positions presented, but the voice of the Right seems rather quiet compared to the Left.
I have always been more of a Centerist, but it often feels as if the voice from the Right is not welcome or accepted in this crowd. I have been hearing very strong voices speaking out against many things, but especially President Bush. Dana Perino gave some validity to my own views and thoughts regarding many of the comments being made. She also held a strong presence and poise that was commendable considering some of the questions being asked of her. The students from the conference were invited to ask her questions during the CSPAN show. You can hear those questions and Dana's answers on CSPAN's web page.
We also heard from Ted Kopel, who brought in a very strong opposing view to Dana Perino, but he had some very good things to contribute to the conversation taking place this week at the conference. There has been a lot presented about the news media, its influence good and bad on political views and outcomes, and about the types of media being used to obtain information such as TV vs. Cable news, blogs and the internet. One of the things being encouraged over and over again is for the students to broaden their perspective by reading materials presenting the opposing side from their views and to enter into civil, listening conversations with others who do not think the same way that they do. Surveys have shown that people 18-35 get the bulk of their news from late night talk shows, Saturday Night Live or other talk show programming and radio. We have been encouraged to read and listen to more legitimate news from all perspectives.
Yesterday afternoon my small group went to visit the Embassy of the State of Kuwait where we met Fatima Nazar, Cultural Attaché. She spoke with us about her country and we heard her perspective of America and the foreign affairs between America and Kuwait. Fatima was very gracious and incredibly pro-America. There was no political party posturing, just incredible enthusiasm regarding the relationship we have between us, and Kuwait's tremendous gratitude for the way that America came and helped to liberate them during the Gulf War. She stated many truths about bi-partisan realities. Regardless of which side you are on, according to Fatima, our government works and works well. Nothing is perfect; no one can fix everything within a four to eight year term of presidential office. No one can control what will come tomorrow. No matter how great you are perceived to be, failures and disappointment are inevitable. Grace and forgiveness will go a long way toward enhancing unity within the political arena of the United States of America in these troubled and strongly divided times.
My hope is that my perspective and views will be challenged and strengthened through this experience. Without a doubt, there is much work to be done to bring us to better stability as a country. My prayer will be that God's will would be done through our newly elected President and that I will be ever mindful and watchful to find my role in it.
~Angie
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Coming Together
I caught a glimpse of hope today as I listened to USA Today columnists Bob Beckel and Cal Thomas share their vision for the future of politics. Each has very strong views about current issues at hand and the political means to bring change to these issues. Beckel is a Democrat and a self proclaimed Liberal. Thomas is a Republican and a conservative. Each have spent many years verbal combat with the opposing side, trying to convince the other that they should come to their way of thinking. They should by all appearances be arch enemies, but the truth is, they are very close friends who care deeply for each other and respect one another. They shared today about how they decided to begin a process of coming together to sit and listen to each other and to truly seek to believe that each are shooting for the same goal in regard to the issues at hand; they simply have different ideas of how to approach them.
They have written a book together called "Common Ground: How to Stop the Partisan War That Is Destroying America". Touring together and presenting their ideas and vision to political leaders and civilians alike, these two friends are trying to generate a movement toward a new kind of political arena; one where all can come together and discuss the issues at hand and work together toward a common good. It was inspiring to listen to them and to think that we could be moving into a new era of politics that will finally move out of party bashing and standoffs, and instead will get the job done through respectful compromise.
It was truly amazing to hear each of these men talk about their own convictions without holding back from stating fully what they believe in and in the same speech acknowledge the short comings and failures of the party to which they belong. I have renewed hope that we as a nation can and will begin to move into a new era of working together, respecting others views without shrinking back from our own, and finding the means to get the job of creating change done. With the dawn of a new presidential administration upon us, there is a strong sense of renewed hope for the future of our nation. What remains to be seen is if this will be a reality fulfilled. The hope for a strong leader is prevalent, but the need for a functional relationship between the House and the Senate as well as between the congress and the president will be the key for successful change. Thomas and Beckel stated that relationships need to be built between individuals from opposing parties for this change to begin to occur. We can make the choice to move toward common ground as well, choosing to enter into relationships with people who do not subscribe to the same ideals and political views. Creating stepping stones to common ground is a good start. It is my desire to begin to take time to pray for a movement toward common ground and seek God's plan for me in this process.
Hoping in Him,
~Angie
They have written a book together called "Common Ground: How to Stop the Partisan War That Is Destroying America". Touring together and presenting their ideas and vision to political leaders and civilians alike, these two friends are trying to generate a movement toward a new kind of political arena; one where all can come together and discuss the issues at hand and work together toward a common good. It was inspiring to listen to them and to think that we could be moving into a new era of politics that will finally move out of party bashing and standoffs, and instead will get the job done through respectful compromise.
It was truly amazing to hear each of these men talk about their own convictions without holding back from stating fully what they believe in and in the same speech acknowledge the short comings and failures of the party to which they belong. I have renewed hope that we as a nation can and will begin to move into a new era of working together, respecting others views without shrinking back from our own, and finding the means to get the job of creating change done. With the dawn of a new presidential administration upon us, there is a strong sense of renewed hope for the future of our nation. What remains to be seen is if this will be a reality fulfilled. The hope for a strong leader is prevalent, but the need for a functional relationship between the House and the Senate as well as between the congress and the president will be the key for successful change. Thomas and Beckel stated that relationships need to be built between individuals from opposing parties for this change to begin to occur. We can make the choice to move toward common ground as well, choosing to enter into relationships with people who do not subscribe to the same ideals and political views. Creating stepping stones to common ground is a good start. It is my desire to begin to take time to pray for a movement toward common ground and seek God's plan for me in this process.
Hoping in Him,
~Angie
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Choices
I arrived in D.C. yesterday afternoon and settled into my apartment. Today was an intro to the conference throughout the a.m. followed by a bus tour of D.C. through the rest of the day. We visited many of the monuments including the Vietnam wall, the WWII memorial, Iwa Jima memorial, Jefferson and FDR memorials, and my all time favorite, the Lincoln memorial.
The history represented here and the lives depicted in art form is breath taking. Standing in front of the Lincoln statue brought tears to my eyes. I have always admired President Lincoln. His fight to free slaves and keep our country united was not a popular fight, but he chose to engage the fight anyway, ultimately losing his life because of the choices he made. He stood for what was right and for what was good even when it became very messy and things looked hopeless. Freedom was gained because of his willingness to do what was right. I wonder if Lincoln ever in his wildest dreams imagined that the fight he choe to enter into would one day allow an African-American man to become president of this country?
Sometimes the choices I am making are not the popular choices, but I step into them anyway, trusting that the Truth that I am choosing to live in and act out of will bring the ultimate good to the circumstance or relationship. Like Lincoln's choices, sometimes things get pretty messy. Ultimately, through God's mercy and sovereignty, Truth reigns. Patience and perseverance bring the peace and health needed, and God honors my willingness to be obedient to His call by bringing health and redemption beyond my wildest dreams.
Sometimes engaging in the fight is an easy choice, sometimes it is a painful act of faith. I will continue to pray for God's strength to make the hard choices when He asks. I have found that it is pure joy when I am living in step with His plan and purposes for my life. His ways are not my ways, and thankfully I am learning that His ways always bring the best for me!
~ Angie
The history represented here and the lives depicted in art form is breath taking. Standing in front of the Lincoln statue brought tears to my eyes. I have always admired President Lincoln. His fight to free slaves and keep our country united was not a popular fight, but he chose to engage the fight anyway, ultimately losing his life because of the choices he made. He stood for what was right and for what was good even when it became very messy and things looked hopeless. Freedom was gained because of his willingness to do what was right. I wonder if Lincoln ever in his wildest dreams imagined that the fight he choe to enter into would one day allow an African-American man to become president of this country?
Sometimes the choices I am making are not the popular choices, but I step into them anyway, trusting that the Truth that I am choosing to live in and act out of will bring the ultimate good to the circumstance or relationship. Like Lincoln's choices, sometimes things get pretty messy. Ultimately, through God's mercy and sovereignty, Truth reigns. Patience and perseverance bring the peace and health needed, and God honors my willingness to be obedient to His call by bringing health and redemption beyond my wildest dreams.
Sometimes engaging in the fight is an easy choice, sometimes it is a painful act of faith. I will continue to pray for God's strength to make the hard choices when He asks. I have found that it is pure joy when I am living in step with His plan and purposes for my life. His ways are not my ways, and thankfully I am learning that His ways always bring the best for me!
~ Angie
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Blind Curves
In less than 32 hours I will be boarding a plane to D.C.! I have known that this trip would be a possibility since March of 2008, and now it is here. I am tremendously aware of the incredible gift that this is, and yet it feels a bit unsettling. Kind of like a blind curve. You can see that is coming, but there are no clues to give you a sense of what is around the corner.
While I know that I can expect the usual tourist sites and historical aspects of D.C., there is a strong sense of the unknown. Traveling into a city to live for eleven days, riding the public transit system, finding my way around in very unfamiliar territory is, at best, intimidating. I have to put all of my trust in the people who have created the conference that I am attending; believe that they will give me the information that I need to make it through each day. I have not yet met them face to face, only via email. Letters to instruct and guide me through my preparation for the time when I will meet them face to face. Choosing to trust that they can lead from their wisdom and experience brings comfort and peace into the unknown.
Ok, so there is a familiarity about this. Very familiar. Trusting One whom I have yet to meet face to face, that is knowledgeable about the territory I am traveling through. Hmmmm....
Gratefully stepping into the adventure set before me; even the blind curves.
~Angie
While I know that I can expect the usual tourist sites and historical aspects of D.C., there is a strong sense of the unknown. Traveling into a city to live for eleven days, riding the public transit system, finding my way around in very unfamiliar territory is, at best, intimidating. I have to put all of my trust in the people who have created the conference that I am attending; believe that they will give me the information that I need to make it through each day. I have not yet met them face to face, only via email. Letters to instruct and guide me through my preparation for the time when I will meet them face to face. Choosing to trust that they can lead from their wisdom and experience brings comfort and peace into the unknown.
Ok, so there is a familiarity about this. Very familiar. Trusting One whom I have yet to meet face to face, that is knowledgeable about the territory I am traveling through. Hmmmm....
Gratefully stepping into the adventure set before me; even the blind curves.
~Angie
Monday, December 29, 2008
Through the Sludge
Well, I made it through the fall semester and maintained my sanity! I have said every semester that I will do my best to stay focused on what is before me without being consumed by it. I am not sure that I have learned how to do that yet. As much as I want to remain calm and centered, I continue to find myself feeling overwhelmed and overloaded. While this is true, truer still is the reality of how God continues to meet me in my neurotic times and gently reminds me that this is His journey that He has invited me into, and it is He who will ultimately work it all out. Once again He brought me to a place of humility and quietness where I had to lean heavily on Him to make it through. Once again I am reminded of how very far He has brought me and how carefully He has orchestrated my steps. As always, it is Him through me.
My sweet husband, Bob and my dear friend Patti Messner put it into words for me what I have been living in these past five months. I have been in a class that has been a bi-weekly assult on my spirit. One of my professors made it very clear that Christianity and belief in God were ridiculous and foolish fantasy and magical thinking. Having lived enough life to have filters for these commentaries was enough to keep my heart embracing the truth, but I was angered by the fact that there were 50 other young people in the class without those filters. They sat through these past five months hearing garbage being presented as fact without the benefit of hearing truth to counter the lies. My heart breaks for the confusion that was stirred up in their hearts. I have prayed for them often. Patti pointed out that I have been walking through a field of sludge that I can't go around. This field is the only way to reach the goal that is in front of me; a degree in social work and whatever God has planned for me through the process and beyond.
In twelve days I will be getting on an airplane and flying to Washington D.C. I am still blown away by this amazing gift that God has given to me! While I have had to prepare physically for this trip, gathering real winter clothing, scarves, gloves and shoes; I have also found myself with a strong thirst for spiritual preparation as well. I have spent most of the last 22 years surrounded by people who love me completely, who live passionately for our sweet Savior, and share openly their own journey of faith with God. Being in school has majorly limited my ability to remain in these safe places on a regular basis. I dearly miss the conversations that help to keep my heart and mind focused on the Father and His amazing character. I have found myself feeling very weary from the pace of life that I have been living, and yet there is no rest in sight at least not for a few more months.
Sunday I sat in service at Open Door Fellowship and was bathed in the truth that I have been missing. Singing Third Day's "King of Glory" and proclaiming at the top of my voice the majesty of our Lord, Jesus Christ, filled my heart. And yet I am still thirsty. I am glad to be thirsty for Him. I don't want to ever know what it is to not long for Him or to not desire to seek Him.
As I leave for D.C., I am very aware of my need to take Him with me. The need to sense His presence is great in my heart, and I want to go in His power and strength, not my own. Throughout the last couple of days, an old song from the '80's came into my mind and I have not been able to shake it. I want to share it with you:
By My Spirit - Leslie Phillips
Chorus:
Not by might, not by power
But by my Spirit says the Lord
Not by might, not by power
But by my Spirit says the Lord
Verse 1:
Sometimes fears can hide your vision
The loss of purpose chains you down
You think I've forgotten all you're dreaming of
But how could I forget the one I love
And it's...
Not by might, not by power
But by my Spirit says the Lord
Not by might, not by power
But by my Spirit says the Lord
Verse 2:
I can see your heart is tired
And your courage has worn thin
You wonder how long you will have to hang on
But when My love comes in, you'll be strong again
And it's...
Not by might, not by power
But by my Spirit says the Lord
Not by might, not by power
But by my Spirit says the Lord
Bridge:
These mountains will be removed
I'll build my temple in you
And what I've promised shall be done
Not by might, not by power
But by my Spirit says the Lord
Not by might, not by power
But by my Spirit says the Lord
Thanking my God that I am not the one who has to hold it together or pull anything off. It is truly Him through me.
~Angie
My sweet husband, Bob and my dear friend Patti Messner put it into words for me what I have been living in these past five months. I have been in a class that has been a bi-weekly assult on my spirit. One of my professors made it very clear that Christianity and belief in God were ridiculous and foolish fantasy and magical thinking. Having lived enough life to have filters for these commentaries was enough to keep my heart embracing the truth, but I was angered by the fact that there were 50 other young people in the class without those filters. They sat through these past five months hearing garbage being presented as fact without the benefit of hearing truth to counter the lies. My heart breaks for the confusion that was stirred up in their hearts. I have prayed for them often. Patti pointed out that I have been walking through a field of sludge that I can't go around. This field is the only way to reach the goal that is in front of me; a degree in social work and whatever God has planned for me through the process and beyond.
In twelve days I will be getting on an airplane and flying to Washington D.C. I am still blown away by this amazing gift that God has given to me! While I have had to prepare physically for this trip, gathering real winter clothing, scarves, gloves and shoes; I have also found myself with a strong thirst for spiritual preparation as well. I have spent most of the last 22 years surrounded by people who love me completely, who live passionately for our sweet Savior, and share openly their own journey of faith with God. Being in school has majorly limited my ability to remain in these safe places on a regular basis. I dearly miss the conversations that help to keep my heart and mind focused on the Father and His amazing character. I have found myself feeling very weary from the pace of life that I have been living, and yet there is no rest in sight at least not for a few more months.
Sunday I sat in service at Open Door Fellowship and was bathed in the truth that I have been missing. Singing Third Day's "King of Glory" and proclaiming at the top of my voice the majesty of our Lord, Jesus Christ, filled my heart. And yet I am still thirsty. I am glad to be thirsty for Him. I don't want to ever know what it is to not long for Him or to not desire to seek Him.
As I leave for D.C., I am very aware of my need to take Him with me. The need to sense His presence is great in my heart, and I want to go in His power and strength, not my own. Throughout the last couple of days, an old song from the '80's came into my mind and I have not been able to shake it. I want to share it with you:
By My Spirit - Leslie Phillips
Chorus:
Not by might, not by power
But by my Spirit says the Lord
Not by might, not by power
But by my Spirit says the Lord
Verse 1:
Sometimes fears can hide your vision
The loss of purpose chains you down
You think I've forgotten all you're dreaming of
But how could I forget the one I love
And it's...
Not by might, not by power
But by my Spirit says the Lord
Not by might, not by power
But by my Spirit says the Lord
Verse 2:
I can see your heart is tired
And your courage has worn thin
You wonder how long you will have to hang on
But when My love comes in, you'll be strong again
And it's...
Not by might, not by power
But by my Spirit says the Lord
Not by might, not by power
But by my Spirit says the Lord
Bridge:
These mountains will be removed
I'll build my temple in you
And what I've promised shall be done
Not by might, not by power
But by my Spirit says the Lord
Not by might, not by power
But by my Spirit says the Lord
Thanking my God that I am not the one who has to hold it together or pull anything off. It is truly Him through me.
~Angie
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Healing
Thought I would let you all know that my eye is healing. I have had scratches on my cornea in the past due to contact issues and that heals pretty quickly. This has been a bit different in that I have had to have a lot of down time and my eye has been dilated continuously since last Wednesday morning. This makes seeing, reading, watching TV, emailing, and just about anything you can think of incredibly challenging. I haven't been this bored in a very long time.
Funny, I always think things will be healed quickly and I can move on with life. After years of being on a healing path with God, you would think that I would know by now that these things take time! Sitting with others in their pain, I hear often, "I thought I would be over this by now." That is when I remind them that God wants us to be healed completely. It is a process, not an event. Well, I am definitely in process this week. In more ways than one.
Not being able to read well, or see to type very well has given me a lot of time to do things not related to school. I truly am loving school and all that goes with it, but I have been tired. Having the time to sit and think, and to meditate on the things that God has been doing in me and through me for the last year and a half has been good medicine for my soul. I have had to use several eye drops multiple times a day for the last week. Each drop has bathed my eye with the very things that are bringing healing and restoration to my eye. It is the same with all that God has been doing in me and through me. Each of these things have brought much healing and restoration to my heart.
As I think through how He has been directing my steps over the last fourteen years, I am becoming more and more aware of the deep scaring that I have had in my heart, but even greater still, the deep, deep healing and restoration He has been bringing. With each step He has guided me along my journey of healing, I have seen the beauty of His truth and the wonder of His love. It has not been an easy journey. In fact, I have often wished that I could be done. Crazy thing is, the longer I travel with Him, the more I have come to understand that the journey is really an adventure. An adventure of discovering who I am, who He is, and how much He longs to use me to lead others toward their journey to discover the same depth of healing and restoration that He continues to bring to me.
So as I sit through the next week, waiting for the healing process to be completed in my eye, I am taking inventory of all that God has brought me through so far, and all that He is leading me toward on this powerfully adventurous journey. Knowing that each bend brings on new challenges, greater healing, and deeper faith; creating in me the great hope of knowing that He is faithful, trustworthy, and ever present along the way.
Pressing onward,
~Angie
Funny, I always think things will be healed quickly and I can move on with life. After years of being on a healing path with God, you would think that I would know by now that these things take time! Sitting with others in their pain, I hear often, "I thought I would be over this by now." That is when I remind them that God wants us to be healed completely. It is a process, not an event. Well, I am definitely in process this week. In more ways than one.
Not being able to read well, or see to type very well has given me a lot of time to do things not related to school. I truly am loving school and all that goes with it, but I have been tired. Having the time to sit and think, and to meditate on the things that God has been doing in me and through me for the last year and a half has been good medicine for my soul. I have had to use several eye drops multiple times a day for the last week. Each drop has bathed my eye with the very things that are bringing healing and restoration to my eye. It is the same with all that God has been doing in me and through me. Each of these things have brought much healing and restoration to my heart.
As I think through how He has been directing my steps over the last fourteen years, I am becoming more and more aware of the deep scaring that I have had in my heart, but even greater still, the deep, deep healing and restoration He has been bringing. With each step He has guided me along my journey of healing, I have seen the beauty of His truth and the wonder of His love. It has not been an easy journey. In fact, I have often wished that I could be done. Crazy thing is, the longer I travel with Him, the more I have come to understand that the journey is really an adventure. An adventure of discovering who I am, who He is, and how much He longs to use me to lead others toward their journey to discover the same depth of healing and restoration that He continues to bring to me.
So as I sit through the next week, waiting for the healing process to be completed in my eye, I am taking inventory of all that God has brought me through so far, and all that He is leading me toward on this powerfully adventurous journey. Knowing that each bend brings on new challenges, greater healing, and deeper faith; creating in me the great hope of knowing that He is faithful, trustworthy, and ever present along the way.
Pressing onward,
~Angie
Thursday, November 20, 2008
11/20/2008
There is so much to share that I really don't know where to start. So I guess I will start with today.
I ended up in the ER two nights ago due to severe eye pain. Turns out I have an ulcer on my right eye and it is inflamed internally as well. This is most unexpected and certainly not conducive to functional life. However, I do know that I have been really tired from all that I have had on my plate this past year, and as He always does, He is providing a way for me to stop for a couple of days to have some forced rest. Being in pain is not necessarily restful, but not being able to drive or go anywhere, demands that I sit still and, for today, rest in His arms.
I know everyone I have been talking to lately has been agreeing that this year has FLOWN by! I can't believe it is Thanksgiving next week. Although when I think back over all that I have done this year, I understand why it has gone so fast. I have been attending Glendale Community College (GCC) since the Spring semester of 2007. I started with one class to see if I could really do this. I found out that I can and I am loving it! Knowing that I do have what it takes to be in school, I am on my way to earning a degree in Social Work.
I jumped in feet first, with the goal of finding as much scholarship opportunity as possible. As I began searching for scholarships, I kept coming up empty handed. Here is how that search is going now: For the Spring semester of 2008, I took on four classes. Yes, I was insane, but I did it, and my family survived it. One of the classes I took involved a Spring Break trip to San Diego to do a service work project. ~ Some of you will know that this is when I went to work with StandUp for Kids, working with the homeless street youth. God melted my heart and captured me in the quest of serving these kids who have very few who stand in the gap for them. God is pulling me deeper and deeper into the world of these kids, and breaking my heart for them. ~ So, because I participated in this project, I have earned $2300 in scholarship awards through Americorp. Wow! This should cover most of the next three semesters of school that it will take for me to complete my AA at GCC.
During my current school career, I have been accepted into the Honors program which is bringing on many important opportunities for me. I attended two conferences in the spring and during one of these, I heard about an opportunity to participate in an amazing trip to Washington D.C. coming up this January. (More to come on this.) I have been able to develop a relationship with the Honor's director, who has been unbelievably supportive and constantly offering amazing opportunities to earn scholarships, participate in special events and is encouraging me to pursue the chance to receive even more financial awards for when I transfer to ASU West. All I can say is, I could never have found all of this on my own. God continually drops these things in my lap and I keep stepping forward.
I have become very aware of the amazing way that God is guiding me on this journey. This semester, I am taking my first Social Work class. As a part of this course, I have had to choose a field of practice to focus on. I have found myself being very drawn to policy and planning. This is really a very funny turn for me. Politics have never been a very big interest of mine. I am too artsy! Well, this is where my heart is being drawn, which only confirms that this is what God is calling me to.
So this brings me to the trip I mentioned several chapters ago. I have been chosen by GCC to attend a conference in Washington D.C. January 10 - 21, 2009! I will be attending multiple events ranging from forums with the media discussing how the media influenced the elections, how the candidate that won used the media to their advantage, what the candidate that lost did that hurt him, etc., to visiting embassies, tours of the capital, and hopefully a tour of the White House. I will also be attending the Inauguration, and with any luck, I will be attending an inaugural ball! I feel like Cinderella!! Another component to this trip is that it is being set up as a class through GCC for which I will receive three credit hours, and the class will focus on policy writing. Is that not an obvious God thing?!
So this novel is the beginning of a travel logue for my journey to Washington D.C. and beyond! If you are interested in keeping track of my journey, please check in from time to time. I will be trying to keep updates regularly especially while I am gone. To all who know me well, you know what it has taken to get to this place. You also have been a very important part of this journey. Without the incredible support from all of my friends and especially my loving husband and kids, I would not be at this juncture. I am honored and unspeakably grateful to you all!!!
I am looking forward to what lies ahead and to what our amazing Father has in store for me as I travel with Him. I am glad you are a part of it too!!
~Angie
I ended up in the ER two nights ago due to severe eye pain. Turns out I have an ulcer on my right eye and it is inflamed internally as well. This is most unexpected and certainly not conducive to functional life. However, I do know that I have been really tired from all that I have had on my plate this past year, and as He always does, He is providing a way for me to stop for a couple of days to have some forced rest. Being in pain is not necessarily restful, but not being able to drive or go anywhere, demands that I sit still and, for today, rest in His arms.
I know everyone I have been talking to lately has been agreeing that this year has FLOWN by! I can't believe it is Thanksgiving next week. Although when I think back over all that I have done this year, I understand why it has gone so fast. I have been attending Glendale Community College (GCC) since the Spring semester of 2007. I started with one class to see if I could really do this. I found out that I can and I am loving it! Knowing that I do have what it takes to be in school, I am on my way to earning a degree in Social Work.
I jumped in feet first, with the goal of finding as much scholarship opportunity as possible. As I began searching for scholarships, I kept coming up empty handed. Here is how that search is going now: For the Spring semester of 2008, I took on four classes. Yes, I was insane, but I did it, and my family survived it. One of the classes I took involved a Spring Break trip to San Diego to do a service work project. ~ Some of you will know that this is when I went to work with StandUp for Kids, working with the homeless street youth. God melted my heart and captured me in the quest of serving these kids who have very few who stand in the gap for them. God is pulling me deeper and deeper into the world of these kids, and breaking my heart for them. ~ So, because I participated in this project, I have earned $2300 in scholarship awards through Americorp. Wow! This should cover most of the next three semesters of school that it will take for me to complete my AA at GCC.
During my current school career, I have been accepted into the Honors program which is bringing on many important opportunities for me. I attended two conferences in the spring and during one of these, I heard about an opportunity to participate in an amazing trip to Washington D.C. coming up this January. (More to come on this.) I have been able to develop a relationship with the Honor's director, who has been unbelievably supportive and constantly offering amazing opportunities to earn scholarships, participate in special events and is encouraging me to pursue the chance to receive even more financial awards for when I transfer to ASU West. All I can say is, I could never have found all of this on my own. God continually drops these things in my lap and I keep stepping forward.
I have become very aware of the amazing way that God is guiding me on this journey. This semester, I am taking my first Social Work class. As a part of this course, I have had to choose a field of practice to focus on. I have found myself being very drawn to policy and planning. This is really a very funny turn for me. Politics have never been a very big interest of mine. I am too artsy! Well, this is where my heart is being drawn, which only confirms that this is what God is calling me to.
So this brings me to the trip I mentioned several chapters ago. I have been chosen by GCC to attend a conference in Washington D.C. January 10 - 21, 2009! I will be attending multiple events ranging from forums with the media discussing how the media influenced the elections, how the candidate that won used the media to their advantage, what the candidate that lost did that hurt him, etc., to visiting embassies, tours of the capital, and hopefully a tour of the White House. I will also be attending the Inauguration, and with any luck, I will be attending an inaugural ball! I feel like Cinderella!! Another component to this trip is that it is being set up as a class through GCC for which I will receive three credit hours, and the class will focus on policy writing. Is that not an obvious God thing?!
So this novel is the beginning of a travel logue for my journey to Washington D.C. and beyond! If you are interested in keeping track of my journey, please check in from time to time. I will be trying to keep updates regularly especially while I am gone. To all who know me well, you know what it has taken to get to this place. You also have been a very important part of this journey. Without the incredible support from all of my friends and especially my loving husband and kids, I would not be at this juncture. I am honored and unspeakably grateful to you all!!!
I am looking forward to what lies ahead and to what our amazing Father has in store for me as I travel with Him. I am glad you are a part of it too!!
~Angie
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